- downside up -
I was going to sit down and plan this post out... you know, rehearse and edit a smidge before I deemed it ready to go... but it's drawing close to the time we trek down the road to our friends/neighbors to snack and play and struggle to stay up until midnight... so there is just this.
I have been away from this space for some time now. I haven't even been reading the blogs I "follow"... but in the meantime, a lot has happened - some externally, some internally. I'll attempt to sum up here.
In 2013, I let go of...
a fear of not trying hard enough. At least in some respects. I think I had an idea that it wasn't right to give up on a job, that I needed to know what the next step would be before I could move on. But... I quit. I allowed myself to think I had given it all I had and still wasn't happy with it. And, thanks to a slew of gracious and good-natured family and friends, I did not become homeless and I didn't starve. Odd jobs popped up left and right, which lead into a nannying stint for two months, which brings us to...
I learned... (bullets behoove us here)
- not to trust a toddler when they say they're potty-trained "enough" to use the toilet on their own
- how to walk away when a child is crying instead of napping (I'm not evil... I just learned the hard way the fine line between actual need and manipulation)
- that the job search process is grueling, and long, and ridiculous, and long... and I had it good
- toddlers say the funniest things
- I really do like the healthcare field
- that I have the most peace when I let go of the reins... or the handlebars... or the helm; choose your metaphor
- I really like my sweets mixed with spices - chai, for example, or salt with chocolate... or chilies with chocolate
- to be more comfortable with "30"... and with myself
- the appreciation of little people. I was the bearer of food and hilarity and comfort, and I was appreciated for it. Such a simple exchange, and overall, a fun one
- seeing my family come together in hard times
- renewing my love for reading
- being more aware of what matters most
- witnessing the love of friends getting married
- new connections and friends
I'm looking forward to a new calendar year, bringing with me the perspectives and experience gained thus far.
Best wishes to you all for a wonderful 2014.